Harbl the cat... only a very different man... TLDR

[NickYYC]

Sorry everyone, I had to delete my previous posts, namely because I was skirting around an extremely hard truth and most of what I said wasn't accurate (that and my wife told me to delete them).

After a huge THC vape session, meditating, and praying, God revealed to me that truth.

I have to make the hardest decision of my life in the coming weeks and I have to prepare for it.

I may not be a specialist in the fields of child psychology and neurology, but I am confident I am one of the best Software Engineers in Calgary, and as such, I am able to understand and troubleshoot extraordinarily complex systems outside of the domain of Software Engineering.

In my training as an engineer, I never learnt how mobile GIS platforms worked, nor military C4ISR systems, nor electrical grid power pool billing, hotel booking systems, construction management and fixture scoping management, or contracts for financial and physical commodities trading... oh and blockchain technology. I'm fully confident in saying I can demonstrate expertise in all of these fields close to or exceding an expert level.

Each of those fields, some seemingly benign or mundane, are of a comparable complexity to the somatic, pneumatic and psychological systems of each human being - of which I have spent the past 10 months obsessing over with greater vigor than I have any of those other areas in an effort to find the answer to curing my daughter.

I'm taking a stress leave from work. Before I left, I told my boss, "You know I have a 'monster truck' of a mind." He agreed.

Most men can't find what that answer is. I can. I have. It took me 10 months or redlining to do it.

The hardest decision is figuring out how I will sacrifice everything I have worked for these past 20 years to manifest it.

I am absolutely prepared to give it all up to heal my family.

"For what shall it profit a man, if he shall gain the whole world, and lose his own soul?" - Mark 8:36

The soul is the mind...

[Doug_M]

The hardest decision is figuring out how I will sacrifice everything I have worked for these past 20 years to manifest it.

I am absolutely prepared to give it all up to heal my family.

That's not hard brother, once you realize "everything" is your family and not what you're about to sacrifice. Good luck, good journey, and best wishes to your family.