So, I do have a history of chronic depression. I have my ups and downs but, I've never been suicidal. Ask for 5 years prior history, well I would have been 13 and I've been having chronic depression from kinda pass then. Maybe a bit before, I cannot remember anything anymore really. Just the way ive dealt with it and moved on with my life.
Here is my argument. Its been 5 years of depression of varying degrees with pills having no effect on me, and just said screw them so there out of the picture. Well, if I wanted to kill myself I would be already dead.
I am mainly depressed about my shortcomings most of the time, like my ineptitude at making friends or talking with people ( having mild Asperger's is sometimes a bitch). My mom who suffers from spina bifida doesn't help either..
It is just worring me about what should I do, I have my PAL training coming up for both non and restricted.
I want a firearm because, it always puts a simile on my face and instantly improve my mood the times I have shot a rifle (AR platform is super fun). Also, I just love military history...
What are the laws surrounding this issue?
It sounds to me that you're experiencing (or have experienced) what in the past was considered simply "teenage angst."
Not to belittle if you actually have a medical condition (since I have no qualifications to diagnose as such), but in my teenage/early adult years years, I was also depressed and even suicidal, but that didn't keep me from joining the army and 8 years later, getting my PAL, an if I was capable of pulling that off 18-19 years ago, I think you could today too.
The thing is, most older men these day's can't empathize what it's like growing up an an era when the entire establishment and every institution in society is actively working against you, which for most young men over the past 2-3 decades, is exactly what has happened.
If you are feeling depressed, you probably have a reason to and, being a teenager still (I assume you're 18 - which though an adult, is still technically a teenager. Just go to any porn site with under 20 "actresses"), having an entire society shame, belittle, and otherwise devalue you as a person during the most formative years when you're least capable of defending or asserting yourself, is likely a major contributor to your depression.
Now, that said, I wouldn't lie about anything on your PAL, but rather, I would encourage you to do everything in your power to get it and to dive headfirst into the broader shooting community.
I've been shooting as a civilian shooter coming up on 10 years (6 years prior with the military) and without a doubt the biggest beneficial aspects of shooting - be it military, hunting, target shooting, or collecting - are the fraternity you establish AND the empowerment you gain by being a gun owner.
Our progressive, re-engineered society wants men to be beta-male, mangina, simps.
Sheep, complacent to the will of the state or the corporation. It does not want strong, independent, alpha-male, trail-blazers. The former is essential to globalism, the later is essential to nationalism and regionalism which our leaders and the entire establishment vehemently reject.
You are blessed, however, to be coming of age in an era where the region and the nation take precedence of the globe (Trump, Brexit, etc.), and in this era, young men of character will be in demand unlike any before.
Shooting empowers you by instilling withing you virtues our socialist, globalist society lacks. Namely - self control, patience, reason, persistence, and personal accountability. Every independent man must possess these qualities. No great man has ever lived without them.
I think this is the real reason why we have gun control in this country. The owners of this country don't want free-thinking, independent men. Neither do they want great men either, less their authority over the land be challenged.
I pray this serves and inspiration and encouragement to you to persist and get your PAL, no matter the cost. Because there is so much more to the gun owning community than owning guns.
There is the prospect of becoming something so much more than what you are today.
The first time I shot a gun, a no-nothing 17 year old Private Recruit in the Reserves shooting a C9 machine gun, I was instantly transformed.
Over the progression of my years, shooting, both in the military and as a civilian, I've grown in ways I could have never imagined when I was 17 (today I'm 33).
I've accomplished a lot in that time (built up an excellent career, a thriving business, and a growing, healthy family) and I know a major contributor to my personal success has been the virtues I developed as a committed shooter and gun enthusiast.
I can't say with certainty, but as a young guy, even with a history of "chronic depression," I think if you can get your PAL, find a fraternity of like minded shooters, including some wiser, more experienced men to gain wisdom from, you stand a very good chance of being similarly successful.